Almost a week without Mom here..

So it seems like things are NEVER gonna be the same,

 when i think about it.

There not.

But...i must move on, find peace and comfort

through this all..

I never realized how much my mother meant to this town,

but

when mom was sick and laying in the ICU, we received SO MANY

phone calls, texts, facebook messages.

At times it was very VERY overwhelming..i just wanted to be alone,

but I'm thankful i never was during the time.

While we were at the Funeral home marking arrangements for Moms

burial, A Few Girls came in, and  made

Me My SIS and Nawnaw this sweater jacket

isn't that so so nice??

Also they designed some shirts for the town to wear.

and u can also get it in Black shirt with Pink Lettering.

isn't it awesome, how much my mother was loved and respected in this town.

The Doctor a few months ago had asked my mother to be

a motivational speaker for cancer survivor's..

she never got the chance to share her word with the world.

one thing i want to share with u is this,

Monday after her Funeral she left us with this AMAZING

PINK RAINBOW

MAYBE IT WAS MY MOTHER TELLING ME

"Everything is fine baby girl's, momma loves u"

I'm still trying to cope, and make my life more better.

one thing my mother taught me was

to NEVER EVER GIVE UP,

ALWAYS LIVE FOR YOURSELF,

FIGHT LIKE A GIRL.

My Mother's body may have given up,

but her spirit and soul will always be here with me.

Like the other day, while i was in my sisters room,

i thought my sister had walked into the living room.

NO ONE THERE.

who was it? was it just a shadow?

I like to think it was Mom

Now, i must go get more coffee, and do a few things around town

See yall soon! :)

xoxo

hey guys..i knew its been awhile

Hey my dolls. i notice i lost a follower....its been awhile, recently my mother passed away....

I have been trying to deal, and cope with this all...its hard to face..is this real?

She lef t me Dec 15...she was all i had, (well i had my son, hubs, sis, and nawnaw, along with friends)
but the only PARENT  i had....She is pain free, living her life with my Pawpaw and The one ABOVE, THE LORD..

I have more to say but ijust wanted to touch base with all my blog girls...keep me in ur prayers...

ill need it..
follow me on twitter...IMAMYWILLINGHAM

SEND ME a tweet, i may need to be cheered up..






ME SIS MOM


MY LIPS ON HER BALD HEAD.

HER HUMMER WITH PINK RIMS

 ME AND HER AT MY BRIDAL SHOWER
 AT A FRIENDS BACHLORETTE PARTY..

MISS U MOM

How the Glitz Stole Cristmas Blog Swap

I cant believe it is almost Christmas Ladies, 

i still have one gift to give and its the Santa present..

This Weekend is also my Wine and Cheese Party

EXCITED SUPER excited.

So on to the post,

the Lovely Raven and The Gorgeous Lindsey

Hosted a great swap called

and i got paired up with the LOVELY and sweet

(like her headband?)

Kristine, this girl is so sweet.

Kristine and her Hubs are High School

sweethearts, have been together for 11 years!!

She inspires me to be strong in my marriage.

Here is what she sent me..

(sorry its blurry Note: that cute ring up there in the right corner,

isn't in the bottom photo, MOI left it at home for the other photo shoot)

seriously SHE totally got me,

and that coffee mug, SERIOUSLY. 

i have been using it everyday..

AND that cute headband and sequin mini clutch os adorbs!!

THANK U KRISTINE I LOVE IT ALL.

(hubs told me that whoever got that knew i needed a mirror.

He thinks I'm a little too conceited.)

Which i tell him its CONFIDENCE,

there IS difference 

Thank u so so so much for my Coffee mug

 can u tell i loves it?



cant wait too see what everyone else got

Confess Sess

So today i will be doing my first ever Confession Session,

I have seen it a couple times on my other blog and thought i would

give it a try...

NOW, lets read what im confessing about today

I CONFESS, i havent gotten ANY christmas except for my son

i finally got something for my hubs last night, BUT tomorrow

Me and The Hubs are going on a christmas shopping spree,

So we will be DUNZO

I CONFESS- I havent washed my hair in like three or four days,

YES i have bathe, but sometimes i just dont want too, plus its good

for ur hair anyways, atleast thats what i say to myself

I CONFESS- we recently just got the Christmas tree decorated, i

think i might just keep it up all year?

I CONFESS- That i ate almost a whole roll of chocolate chip

cookie dough a couple nights ago.. HEY, we are all human right?

I CONFESS- Im in love with a cartoon character,

His name- Sterling Archer.

i know im a creep oh well..HOTTIE..

I CONFESS- I have had a drink everyday this week, this should make Raven

proud.

I CONFESS- I WILL BE DOING NOTHING ALL WEEKEND..besides

eat, sleep, and hang with Little Man and Hubs, maybe snuggle all weekend too

I CONFESS- I was lazy and just ordered my pizza online.

who else does this?

I CONFESS- i have been tricking my son into getting his veggies lately...#winning

So there u have it..

I confessed...

until next time ladies...

PEACE AND BLESSINGS.

Cancer sucks, once again.

Today while im sitting here thinking about what i need to blog about.
The ONLY thing that comes to mind is my mom.

I know i have talked about her before on here, well she has cancer.

u can read here about some of her story..


Well mom started radation a few weeks back and finsihed her last
round last Wednesday on her 50TH bday, (what a great present huh?)


Well, sometime last week i had finally got up enough courage to watch My Sister's Keeper
and OH MY, wow..it put it in very much prespective for me.

So starting Sunday mom was having trouble with getting her bowels moving, well she literally
looked five months prego, i couldnt believe it..well she tried everything to get them moving..
well it worked but she was still terribly miserable.

So she went to the local ER here, which i HIGHLY dont recommend, but they always seem to take the best care for her there.
I guess me working there in the past kinda has helped ;)
 i forgot to say also, the ER Doc, said her Liver was swollening..(Dear Lord, please dont let this be the end.)
They admitted her, here in town, and told us they would ship her to another Hospital
that would be more Knowledgeable with her condition.
So me and my sisterpants are gonna get ready and head up there soon..

But, Yesterday when i came over and seen her lying in the bed, i looked my mom right into the eyes, told her i loved her then came into the computer room and cried. (i tried to restrain from anyone hearing me)

Why was i crying well.
Here is what was running through my head.
Is my Mom dying?
Will this be the last year i see my mother happy and alive?
Why does this have to happen to US? Why not someone who hates there life?
What will i do when she is gone? How will i cope?
Will SHE EVER beat it?
Will life go on if she dies?
Why cant she JUST LIVE?


Im sorry, im tearing up right now, it just hits me really hard, after my grandpa passed away..its been
hard. U see he was my father figure, as well as my mom, she always had double parental duty. (my father left when i was younger)

So how should i cope?
I have NEVER came to my mother with these questions i can bare to see her know i hurt.
I need something, i need to talk about it.. BUT with who?
None of my friends understand and the ones that do are a hour away


i will keep yall posted, i need to shower, and prolly have alittle cry..
love all my followers. please pray.

FOREVER 21 HAUL.

So when the crazies were out on Black Friday

MOI. was home doing my online thing and

thought i would spurgle but who would pass up

BUY ONE GET ONE FREE.

NOT.ME.SORRY

and i had the extra cash.

so i found this awesome lepard print which i needed badly in my closet.

sooo EXCITED to wear this.

what ya think?

so here is this over light jacket i got,

down below u can see the details.

so cute right? i didnt realize the great detail

cause i had three one glasses of wine ;) 

here are one pair of shoes i got.

please excuse the lingering bread..

and the other pair i have been needing a pair of these

in my closet for awhile!!

finally got them with my great deal.

yes another, but the first one isnt as bright and bold

as this one..

&& this lovely balck and white floral

pattern dress (forgot to get close up) 

wear my grey shoes and some cute

colored tights, ya think? 

here is some of the detail with the

sqaure out in the front, in

the back its a little more open.

and u can see the pattern too ;)

and this lovely gold and black square ring..

i thought it would look great with the bold lepard



So what do yall think of the purchases?? did i do good.

which is ur favorite?

www.forever21.com

go shop!!

Would u like some Wine and Cheese, Dolls?

SoOoOOooo last year.

I put on my very 1st Wine and Cheese Tasting Party,

and threw in a little Chinese Christmas in the mix just for giggles.

I am Proud to say that i will be putting on my

2nd Annual Wine and Cheese Party

and its in two weeks. VERY

VERY. VERY.EXCITED for this.

Last yea i have a great turnout..

here are some photos of the night.

see how excited i was to recieve my new shampoo and conditnior.. WOW

major cheeseing it.

katie looks thrilled doesnt she.

Mollie already getting one eyed..

the get up...this year will o so different

ok..gay i know, but hey it was my first one.

see the lady in the purple.. she was ready to get the party started.

LOVE Joanne..sweet sweet lady

me and my other half, Katie aka K3

dirty minds game..this was fought over

sexy kissy face

bathroom photo op?

thanks for whoever brought this. we finished it that night i believe

Well there u have it.

This year, my W & C Party will be held on

December 17. IM very excited to see how

it willl turn out this year..

i cant wait to eat cheese, drink wine, and be merry

CHEERS...

see u monday. i have more to tell about my crazy week..

holla..